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except that I dropped my zippo that I've had for like 5 years into the water, and now it's gone forever. I suppose I could have dove in after it, seeing as how it was only at the dock, but apparently the water was like 9 ft. deep there, and kinda nasty. Besides, it's not as if the little bugger would work again, but I could have collected the casing and gotten a new actual lighter part.  Oh well. Anywho, other than that, the lake was great fun.  We came, we drank, we rode the wave runners from dawn until dusk.  Oh yeah, we went on the boat too.  No one got shitty drunk like last year and tried to get on the town go-karts, but every trip has its drawbacks, right?  Was v. fun anyway.  Yes, well, what else?  I saw Charlie and the Chocolate factory again last week, and have decided that I rather do like it a whole lot. Seeing it the first time made me want to go out and buy the book, which I did last Saturday. I do wonder now why I had never read it before, considering my former obsession with the 1971 movie and the fact that I love to read, but I suppose I just never got around to it. Anyhow, I drove to Lima last Saturday (that is to say the 6th of August, and not yesterday, the 13th), hungover off my ass to buy it, plus some American Eagle stuff and Bath and Body Works. Went through an annoying ordeal at AE because my gift certificate wouldn't work (ended up buying one really cute T-shirt, tho), but got the book, and its sequel, Charlie and the Great Glass Elevator, as well (which was really weird).  So, I came home and read half of it, went to work, and then saw the movie again with some other friends. I was delighted to find the movie almost perfectly matched the book (or what I had read of it, anyway) I am not sure if it was this that made me like the movie more, or whatever else, but I came home and read the rest of the book, and now I am afraid that my old obsession is firing up again. Lord help us all. I really really liked the book. The new movie follows it much more closely than the original film, but book Wonka is not really like Johnny Depp's version OR Gene Wilder's. I would say he's closer to Wilder's version, however. He's totally BA (badass, for all not familiar with Dane Cook).  He's not all whiny, childish, and weird like Depp, and he's got a little bit more pep than Wilder.  I think I like book Wonka better than either film version.  The costume designers should have given Depp's Wonka a little goatee like book Wonka has, maybe it would have alleviated that creepy feminine/Michael Jackson vibe he had. That's probably the look they were going for...but still. Yeah, anyway, I realize I have probably overanalyzed this way too much. On to other things...well, still doing the vet thing, probably going to take the GRE here pretty soon...which is seriously going to cut into my internet time, but oh well. I suppose I need to start getting on the ball, I've slack-assed pretty severely so far. *Sigh* but I don't like to write about such things, as they are constantly on my mind anyway, and they depress me. It's much more amusing to regale tales of drunkeness and discuss the subtleties of movies and books, wouldn't you agree?  Well, maybe some people would. Perhaps I've just been smoking crack. Maybe I'm just a nerd with too much time on her hands, or at least time that I PUT on my hands instead of doing something productive like studying for the GRE.  But those stupid little bits of fanfiction I write occasionally HAVE to improve my chances on the essay portion of the GRE, right? Right?
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Ah well, it's too much fun to stop...

Ta!

~*~L.J.~*~

After all he is in most of his movies, phenominal most times, actually. But his rendition of Willy Wonka disappointed me. Don't get me wrong, I really liked Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Tim Burton is a fantastic director, and his movies are always creepy, yet beautiful and emotional. Most of the time, I had a ball comparing the new movie to the 1971 version, which used to be my favorite movie of all time, BTW. There was some stuff cut out and changed from the '71 version, but I still thoroughly enjoyed it. I had heard that this movie was actually closer to the book, which I have never read (surprisingly). I do plan on reading it someday.  The casting was excellent, for the most part.  Some of the new character portrayals I liked better than the old ones, such as Mike Teavee and Charlie (he is ADORABLE! I want to see Finding Neverland like ten times more now, I still can't believe I haven't seen it yet!). Others, well...here is my biggest problem with this movie.  When I was a kid, I LOVED the 1971 version, with Gene Wilder as Willy Wonka. For the year or two that I was obsessed with this movie (obsessed like I am with LOTR and Harry Potter now), I had a REALLY big crush on Willa Wonka! I mean, I would watch this movie just to see him, and I still remember my mother teasing me mercilessly about it (blushes just THINKING about it...hehe).  Well ANYWAY, ever since then, Willy Wonka has been one of my BOYS, you know?  He was probably one of the first imaginary personas/actors I ever had a crush on, and so in essence one of the first GUYS I ever had a crush on, because this was before I ever really had any interest in real guys my own age (which I still don't really, I like the OLDER mens, as you can clearly see, heh). So, of course, I look back on it with great fondness (and a little embarrasment, as well, hehe).  When I heard they were doing a remake years later, I was very excited, and when I heard that Johnny Depp, one of my Boys NOW (and one of the sexiest men on the planet, IMHO) was going to be playing Willy Wonka I was ECSTATIC!!! But what I saw wasn't what I expected. Depp had the opportunity to make this character one of his sexiest yet, but he ended up going a completely different route. Wilder's Willy Wonka was (snazzy bit of alliteration there, wouldn't you say? ;-)) a brilliant eccentric candymaker with a very quirky personality, and yet, his character also exuded power, sexuality, intelligence and a bit of danger, as well. You felt that he was a bit insane, a bit dangerous, yet you trusted him (even after all those dreadful things that happened to the bad kids). He was in control, and you liked it that way (well, I did at least).  The women in that movie were all over him.  Sheeeit, I know I would have been.  I remember thinking, "Damn, why is that Veruca girl being such a little bitch to Willy Wonka?  If it were me, I would ask him if I could come live with him!"  LOL! Well, yeah, so Johnny Depp's Willy Wonka was completely the opposite.  He was a messed up little buggar.  Sure, he was a brilliant chocolatier just like the old verion of Wonka, but his personality was the opposite of Wilder's.  He acted like a spoiled little kid throughout the whole movie! He would be all giggly and hop around like some kid hyped up on sugar. In fact, his childish attitude combined with his clothes (which, without his personality and stupid haircut, would have looked quite bad-ass (or B.A. as I have recently taken to saying, thank you Dane Cook!)) and his rather gay-looking hairstyle, reminded me very strongly of Michael Jackson. Not to mention the fact that he created a "magical wonderland" for himself and invited children in to enjoy it.  Now, I despise this comparison, because I LOATHE Michael Jackson, and I think there is something seriously wrong with him.  So many other people were making it after they saw this movie, and I was in denial at first.  But now I cannot overlook the frightening similarities between Depp's Wonka and the King of Pop.  I mean, some of his lines are just RIDICULOUS. "Good morning starshine, the Earth says hello?"  What the fuck is that?  And the whole him being afraid of being touched/being afraid of germs thing was really weird too.  But on the upside, he was rather amusing, and if you looked beyond all the childish dialogue and idiotic antics, you could still see that HAWTNESS that is and forever shall be Johnny Depp.  I suppose if Depp was going for the man-child Michael Jackson thing, he hit it right on the nose.  Knowing Tim Burton, I wouldn't be surprised if that was what they were going for.  I just think Depp had the potential to execute it so much better.  He could have made the character a sex symbol, just like Jack Sparrow.  But I suppose Johnny Depp doesn't take roles in movies so that he becomes an idol to millions of fangirls... he takes them because they interest him, and he wants to get into the character's head.  I have to say I respect him for that.  I am not disappointed by his performance, if he indeed intended to play Wonka that way.  His performance was brilliant, as ever.  I am just disappointed that he didn't play one of my favorite characters in the way I would have liked.  Oh well, there is my rant.  A good movie, but not a GREAT movie, like it could have been...

Cheers!

~*~L.J.~*~

My review of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince!  I just finished it last night.  I will not make too detailed a review, as some people who might read this entry might not have read the book yet.  Overall, I liked it, but it did have some flaws.  All in all the book itself was rather like filler, and really should stand with book 7 as one book.  It answers many questions, and some of the answers, IMO anyway, were not that satisfactory, or at least, not what I expected.  Many new questions are posed as well.  Ok, I shall break it up into 3 bits: things I didn't like, things I did like, and my emotional reaction to shit that happened in the book. Ok, things I did not like:  Some of the characters, Dumbledore in particular suffer from a bit of bad characterization.  You'll see what I mean when you read the book.  Honestly, he is really the only one, everyone else is fine.  Also, there were alot of new hook-ups in the book between characters and it reminds me too much of bad fanfiction or a soap-opera.  I suppose its necessary, as the kids are getting older, but its not only them! It's some of the adults, too!  I don't really think those side relationship thingys are going to be very central to the plot of the next book, so I can forgive them, I guess.  The core relationship is, was, and always will be the one between Harry, Ron, and Hermione.  Anyway, what else?  Um...other than that, the rest of the things I don't like about are not writing flaws, but actual things that happen in the book, so I'll talk about them last.  So, yeah, things I did like about the book: New likeable characters.  Not as many as last book, but there are some I really liked from this book. You can also tell Harry is growing up, he is not so whiny and annoyingly-teenage as in the last book.  He accepts his responsibilities and is determined to see them through.  So yeah, I liked the characterization of Harry.  Just a good story all together, but definitely leaves you wanting book 7 to get here TOMORROW.  Anyway, so yeah, alot of important and surprising shit happens in this book.  In fact, something really big happens at the end, and I can honestly say, it isn't a GOOD something.  I reached the end of the book feeling like it was a good book, and that I had enjoyed it just as I had the other books in the Harry Potter series, but I also felt very sad and angry about this thing that happened at the end.  I went to bed last night with my brain full of questions and feelings of disbelief, sadness, anger, and betrayal in my heart, and had a bit of trouble sleeping because of it.  I woke up this morning, still not really believing that JK Rowling would do something like that, and still with my brain full of questions.  As the day wore on, and I had time to mull and stew over it, and also have access to a million other Harry Potter fans via internet, my opinion gradually changed.  I was already suspicious last night, because something didnt seem quite right, and in JK Rowling's world, things are rarely what they seem.  And indeed, upon listening to the comments and conversations of other HP fans, I am convinced (well, mostly convinced anyway, alot of stuff in this book that I had expected and other HP fans predicted did not come to pass) that that situation at the end of the book was not as it seemed, and in book 7, the betrayal I felt will be rectified.  Ok, that's it for now.  Everyone prolly thinks I'm pathetic to sit down and write all this, but I am high right now, and have nothing better to do.  Plus I love Harry Potter!  I really do have a life...I do...I swear I do!  I don't care if you don't believe me!  Hey, stop laughing!  Well, I'll get you....AVADA KEDAVRA!!!  Hey, why isn't it working??  Oh yeah, I'm not a witch....damn! 

I know I'm pathetic, but I just don't care, it's too much fun to stop!  

"Blocked again and again and again until you learn to keep your mouth shut and your mind closed, Potter!"  ~Profesor Severus Snape

Cheers!

~*~L.J.~*~

But they were playing beerpong and both missed the table, so I guess it's ok (I guess).  Besides, they had to do it, I don't tolerate cheating at beerpong at my house!  Just glad I didn't have to see it.  The party was pretty cool, not a whole lot of people came, but it was really fun and everyone got shitcanned.  Still have a buttload of Jell-O shots left, though, which sucks, because I don't know what to do with them, seeing as how they suck. Remind me not to put a cup of vodka in next time.  Everyone had fun playing beerpong though, especially my mother...but I shan't go into THAT for obvious reasons *shudder*   Well, its over now, and I'm turning my thoughts to Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince that comes out next Satruday.  I am still in the middle of the Stephanie Plum book that Jen bought me.  It is pretty good, hilarious at times, but I have to admit that I would rather be reading something by Tolkien.  I am going to try to finish it tonight and get the rest of the fifth Harry Potter read again so it will be fresh in my mind for Saturday.  Half-Blood Prince should take a total of about 2 or 3 days to read, I should think, then I think I am loaning it to Jen.  After I finish it, I had planned on re-reading the Lord of the Rings trilogy again, but we'll see.  I had also wanted to read the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy books this summer, but now I am not feeling it as much as I was after I saw the movie.  Oh well, still swimming almost everyday.  I go to the vet, go to work and hang out, seems as that's all I do.  Pretty boring summer, really.  No big vacations planned or anything except a camping trip in August and a trip to the lake in August, plus maybe another trip to Cedar Point.  All in all, the new Harry Potter book, my party, and the afore mentioned events are going to be the highlights of my summer.  Maybe some of the movies that are coming out over the summer as well.  War of the Worlds was pretty good, and I am looking forward to seeing Charlie and the Chocolate factory next week sometime, though I was originally planning on seeing it with Kelly, but I don't think that is going to happen.  It really sucks that all my school friends live so far away, as they are the people I like to see movies with because they always want to see the same things I want to see.  Oh well, still don't know when I am moving to NC.  *sigh*  Well over and out for now...

Peace   ~*~L.J.~*~

Everyone who knows me well can tell you that I am a major nerd, and what's more, I am very proud of it.  Rarely do I let more than 15 minutes go by in a conversation before I bring up something Harry Potter related, or make some reference to the Lord of the Rings trilogy.  I wouldn't go so far as to attend one of those convention things (no desire to, really), or dress up as certain characters, like the Star Wars fans do, but I definitely get into fantasy/sci-fi type of  books and movies more than normal people do.  For instance, I belong to several clubs and message boards having to do with the two afore mentioned series and others, as well.  Being, at heart, an artsy, creative type of person, the opportunity these types of genres leave for expansion on the story also appeals to me. I've been doing fanart since I was like the age of 5.  It started with things like The Lion King, and various other Disney movies, and it never really went away.  I still do drawings based on my favorite movies and books now, although less frequently than when I was younger.  Sometimes inspiration takes a hold, and I just can't help myself  ;-) .  Reading fanfiction is also a favorite hobby of mine.  It's like reading the book, only it fills in the gaps that aren't described in the book (or movie).  Some of it is crap, really, written by stupid little teenagers, but some of it is of novel-quality caliber, and is quite entertaining.  I've even tried my hand at writing some myself, although, it is, in my opinion, not that good, and is really just for my own benefit as an outlet to pour my creativity and thoughts into.  It's really quite therapeutic at times, like writing in a journal. Oh well, that's just my little exploration of my "hobby."  I am sure some of you now are of the opinion that I am crazy.  Could be.  Anyway, to finally get to the real subject of this entry, I was surfing my geeky little web sites on this fine morning, my cup of coffee in hand, music cranked up for all of Campbell Hill to to be rudely awakened by, when I came across this one webpage.  I think it might have been someone's blog, but this guy (or girl) was going on and on about how we, as nerds, have nothing to look forward to, movie-wise, in the upcoming couple years.  That is true, in some respects, but there are also some movies coming up in the near future that look great.  The saddest thing is that the two greatest trilogies in human history (IMO, anyway) are now over.  I am, of course talking about Lord of the Rings, and Star Wars.  Now, I am not a huge Star Wars fan, its ok, but it is like the nerd's bible, so I must at least mention it.  I haven't seen Revenge of the Sith yet, tonight's the night (I heard it was awesome, too!), but after that, there will be no more Star Wars movies, at least not made by George Lucas.  It's just kind of sad, the six movies, considered by many to be the  greatest epic Sci-fi saga of all time, are now done, and there will be no more.  Yeah, and Lord of the Rings I am not going to go into too much, just because the trilogy has been finished now for nearly a year and a half. I was so sad when it was over, I am not even going to elaborate.   A personal favorite of mine is also ended, The Matrix movies.  Many people hated the second two movies, but I have always liked them, and was sad when they were over.  Not so bad now though, since that was like a year and a half ago.  Oh well, it was inevitable >;-).  On the other hand, though, we nerds still have alot to look forward to.  The next four Harry Potter movies, for instance, not to mention the last two books.  Also, Peter Jackson's making a film rendition of the prequel to LOTR, The Hobbit, which I, personally, being the LOTR freak that I am, am looking forward to greatly.  That seems very far off, I don't think he has even started production yet, as its not on Internet Movie Database (I swear by that site, I'm telling you, if you haven't checked it out, go do it! There's a link to it on my links section).  However, there are some other movies that look fantastic that are coming out in the next year or so.  Charlie and the Chocolate Factory looks good (I used to looooove this movie as a kid, I totally had a crush on Gene Wilder), although I don't know as if this would be considered a nerdy movie.  I suppose it does have a nerd factor because of Johnny Depp.  He's sort of slipped into geeky circles because of Pirates of the Carribbean, although many non-geeky type of people love him and that movie.  Speaking of POTC, we also have the sequel to look forward to.  And, dude, don't even get me started on The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe that comes out next Christmas.  The Chronicles of Narnia was a favorite of mine as a child (naturally), although I haven't read all the books.  I loved the book and cartoon version of  The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (LWW), and when I heard that they were making a movie out of it, I all but shit a brick.  I finally saw a preview of it during the ABC showing of the second Harry Potter movie (the scenes from Goblet of Fire look awesome!), and it looked absolutely incredible! Even Laura, who normally doesn't like geeky shit thought it looked awesome, I think she had read the book as a kid, as well.  I had always hoped they would do a good movie version of that book, and seeing what was done with LOTR,  I have very high hopes for this movie. I am very much looking forward to this.  I guess I also should throw in any future Lemony Snicket's movies.  I really liked the first one, and the book was good too, entertaining, although clearly written for younger readers.  I could also mention any future Spiderman movies, and I know a new Batman is coming out, but I was not into the Batman movies at all, and was not a huge fan of the Spiderman movies, so I will just mention them in passing.  All in all, while it is regretful that there are no more LOTR movies to look forward to (and believe me, I do regret this) there is still some good shit coming out in the near future that will keep the nerd in me, and even some of you, very happy indeed.  Anyway, that is my little nerdy rambling. I try not to go into all this shit too much on here because I know some of the people who read this will both  a.) think I am very strange and a little crazy (as if you don't already ;-) ) and b.) not want to ever read my blog because it bores them out of their minds.  However, today, I am hyped up on coffee, the prospect of a great summer ahead of me, and the excitement at seeing Star Wars tonight.  So forgive me my jabbering just this once.  My next entry shall be far more normal, and IMO, mundane. *sigh*  Well, I think that's about it for now.  I have to go pack some of my shit up, or maybe I'll just surf for a little longer... I want to get out of here, but yet I don't...I will miss Campbell Hill 103 more than I realize, I think...but the discussion of that is for another entry.  Peace.

Ta,

~*~L.J.~*~

P.S. I am obsessed with the song I am listening to right now, everyone needs to go buy the new 3 Doors Down album, it's great!

Well, folks this is it. I am officially an alumnist of Bowling Green State University.  I don't really know how I feel about it. The predominant emotion is probably sadness.  Besides not graduating with honors (missed it by like 3 tenths of a point!), I am sad for other more normal reasons. I have not made a whole lot of friends here, but the ones I have made (and kept, anyway) I hold very dear. I know I will see them again over the summer and even next year, but it still won't be the same as if we were actually taking classes together and I was working at the Union. Others I have made friends with and grew apart from I wish the best of luck and wished we had stayed close, but sometimes life takes people down different paths, and you have to follow the one you feel calling to you. I wish no one ill will. I have experienced so much here at BGSU and learned alot about other people, the world around me, and myself in the process. A chapter in my life is closing, and I suppose its only natural to be sad. All the things I am into now, I got into when I was attending school here. When I compare myself to the scared little pathetic freshman that first travelled here one Saturday morning and called this place "The Hellhole" for the whole first year, I see how I have grown and changed, but yet I still see many similarities between myself and that girl. I am about to embark on a new phase in my life (first time taking a year off of school since pre-school) in which I will have to grow up even more. I am scared, just like I was then. I realize now that being scared about such things is just part of growing up, everyone has to deal with it. You get through it and come out a better person, for the most part. The people that you meet a long the way and the experiences you have, good or bad, only serve to enrich the process of living. The people I've met and the experiences I've had, have, over all, contributed to my life, and I am a better person for having them. Ok, so I was waaaay more eloquent about this the other night when I was high...but I felt like I had to write a tribute to my time here at BG. So, to all my friends and roommates, you have made my time here interesting, eventful, sometimes even a pain in the ass, but mostly just awesome all around! I love you all and will miss you greatly. I will be seeing most of you over the summer still, but I will no longer be apart of the college scene, which is sad.  Anyway, that is my emotional little harangue for the day.  I am capable of writing a long, sad, epic entry about friendship and growing up and all that, but frankly, I am too lazy to, and Harry Potter is on TV ;-p  So, I will bid you all a fond farewell and sign off for the evening.  Good luck to everyone who is graduating, those who are still in school, and everyone in between!  May you all find happiness, friendship, goodwill, and peace with the world! 

"The Road goes ever on and on

Down from the door where it began.

Now far ahead the Road has gone,

And I must follow, if I can,

Pursuing it with eager feet,

Until it joins some larger way

Where many paths and errands meet,

And whither then? I cannot say."

                     ~J.R.R. Tolkien

Farewell, my friends, and may you all find the right path to wander down!

~*~L.J.~*~

And it looks incredible folks! I've been waiting forever and five days for that fucker and I finally got it on Friday. In case you don't know what I'm talking about, it is a map of Middle Earth that my ex was having his friend draw up for me (yeah, he draws maps for a hobby, go figure), until we broke up. Then we fought about who was paying for it, and it was just one big bloody mess that I don't want to go into. ANYway, the guy finally finished it last week. Now all I have to do is find a frame that will fit it, so I can hang it proudly above my computer, thereby declaring my geekhood to all who enter my room! Muhahahahaha!!!!! Ok, I'm done. Well what else....yeah its finals week, and hopefully I will only have one final. Who the hell knows when I will find out if I have to take the other one...probably the day of the test. If she couldnt grade one test over the course of two weeks, I don't bloody well see how she's going to grade everyone's projects and tests over one weekend. God. So yeah, Mushroom hunting. Really wanna go. hopefully there will still be some by the time I get out of school. Hopefully I can go home next week for a few days and hunt a little. What else? Don't really want to go to graduation ceremony, but invited whole family, so really can't back out now. Why am I talking in clipped sentances? No idea. Have to work tomorrow @ 6 in the morning. But hey! It's a good job I don't have a test to study for all day tomorrow when I get home.....oh wait :-(.  Anyway, think I'll go to bed soon, yeah this is a boring entry, sue me! Seems like I can never get into the mood to write...hmmm...........well, I'm out.

Cheers!
               ~*~L.J.~*~

The floppy disk that I have had for like 2 years which had all the stories and other shit that I had wrote over that period of time is now gone. I am not sure what exactly happened to it, but now whenever I put it in and try to run the stuff on it, a little box pops up and tells me the disk is not properly formatted for my computer.  I have no idea how to fix it or even know if I can fix it.  I tried it on Laura's computer, and it was just as fucked up on there.  Man, this totally sucks ASS! I was totally working on this thing that I had saved, now I will have to start all over again.  Not to mention that I had other stuff I had written before on there, some of which I was not finished with.  *Sigh* I guess this will teach me a lesson about having back-up disks and whatnot.  I really hope I can find someway to get my computer to read it again.  Anyway, enough about that, it makes me sad to think about it.  So, Tray is now officially engaged. I am so surprised :-/  Can you tell that I can barely contain my excitement?  Not that I'm not happy for her, but we all knew it was coming.  I am looking forward to all the partying surrounding the wedding, but afterwards I know we will never see her. *Sigh* oh well, all part of growing up, I suppose.  I have to get used to my friends going their separate ways......man this is depressing, first my disk, now this, this is turning out to be a sad entry. I don't even want to talk about my Biochem exam.....*shudder* it was definitely not my usual stellar performance.  I guess I am over it now, since I am doing the extra credit with Kristy and Trisha, and will almost certainly not have to take the final.  I was sooooooo pissed off on Friday though, and to top it off, I came home and the power was out, and when I finally got it to work again, the internet was fucked up!  I don't know what it is about computers, though, seriously.  I'm like their mortal enemy or something.  It's like before they're sold, they take an oath among themselves to do everything in their power, save crashing completely, to have minor glitches that will annoy the fuck out of me! I think they are in on the conspiracy against me that the rest of the world is in on. Lord.....anyway I have to go work on the Biochem extra credit, which will suck ass, but not as much ass as the final would.  Hopefully something good will happen to me soon that I can report on (*crosses fingers* please GOD let it be that my disk is fixed!!!).  Well, on the upside, I don't feel like ass anymore! Ummmm, yeah.   

                             ~*~L.J.~*~

that fucking decided it would make grated parmesan of my vocal chords? OK, I know that was lame, but that's exactly what my throat feels like right now. Seriously, this has gone on all week, I think I may have strep throat, but I don't know because I've never had it. I really hope I don't have to go home and go to the doctor tomorrow. What is up with me being sick? I NEVER get sick, but while living here, I've been sick at least 3 times. Disease runs rampant in this apartment, I swear to God. I commented on this earlier today to Tray, and she thought it was perhaps because our house is a fucking hole.  The fact that the amount of filth built up in this place is indistinguishable from that built up in the dumpster outside may have something to do with it. *Sigh* I am not going to name names because I am just as responsible.  I never fucking clean! Still, I am just as disgusted when I look around at all the empty beer cans laying about, piles of dirty dishes, and layers of dust as I would be if I hadn't had anything to do with making the mess. I am sooooo not looking forward to moving out... :-(  Anyway, being sick made for a rather sad 4:20.  I smoked, but not a lot, and now my throat hurts even more. People want me to go out and party this weekend, but I don't know if I'll be able to at this rate. Well, what else....I am obsessed with this song now...ummm......oh yeah, I got a fucking 82 on that damn Physics test....ok, but I was really hoping for something a little better than that. Oh well, what ever can one do when one's instructor is an obnoxious, arrogant little snot who expects his class to listen to him ramble on and on about shit his kids did when they were like five, and then solve test questions that involve remote little bits of information that he happened to mention offhandedly in said ramblings.  I missed 3 questions on the front page of the test, which knocked me down 15 points.   The material of one of them, I had never seen before in my life, and the other two, I had vaguely remembered him mentioning in an offhand kind of manner, but not as any serious test material.  I read all 4 chapters and re-did all the homework.  I hardly think his testing methods are fair. He is a poor instructor and an idiot, besides, in my humble opinion. Yeah, I haven't gotten the biochem test back yet. Isn't that funny? I took that test like 2 weeks ago. I took the Physics test like last Wednesday and got it back this past Monday.  I took and got the Physics test back in between the time I took the Biochem test and got it back.  Our teacher is rather a slacker. Oh well. Starting to feel like shit again, so I think I'm going to wrap it up. I could go study for Biochem, but we all know how likely THAT is to happen.

"In the morning I'm leaving, makin' my way back to Cleveland, so tonight, I hope that I will do just fine.  And I don't see how you could ever be, anything but mine." ~Kenny Chesney  

I love this song! The chorus just rubs me the right way, maybe because I'm from a place that's sort of near Clevelend, or maybe because I've had some relationships that this song would be appropriate for, I don't know. I just like it :-D

~Peace

~*~L.J.~*~  (who's gonna be taking a huge fucking dose of NyQuil in a lil' while, tehe!)

and I'm stuck in Biochem, and ...*shudders* Physics.  And I spelled "the" wrong on purpose, if you were wondering.  Yes, I am an internet geek, thank you for asking :-D.  Well, the MCAT sucked some hard core ass, just like I knew it would, but its over now, so I shan't worry about it until I get my results back, which won't be until like 2 months from now.  I am totally fine with that long of a waiting period, BTW.  Wednesday is 4:20! YAY! I think we're going "househopping," so to speak. Should be a good time. Hopefully a certain somebody won't be dragging ass like she was the last time she was here, because that sucked ass for the rest of us. You know who you are!  Anyway, what else...I think we will get our Biochem and Physics tests back today...hopefully I will get an A on at least one of them, but I'm not holding my breath.  Well, just a couple weeks until graduation, and I almost wish I was staying another semester, just so I can get my GPA up to a 3.5. Right now its a 3.46, and I am incrdibly pissed off about it.  I thought for a long time I had a 3.5, and I checked the other day and it was only 3.46.  It was like that in high school too, its like I'm almost there, but in the end, I am still on the outside, pressing my face against the window, looking in on all the people who graduated with honors.  I am always almost there, but not quite THERE.  It pisses me off sooooooooo much!!! It's teh fucking math, dude, I'm telling you!!! I kick ass at everything else. English, all my biology classes, history, all the other little shit classes I took to complete my major, all A's across the board.  But put me in a Chemistry class, or Physics, and its C's across the board. Why must I suck so badly at math!? It's not fair! I know people that are taking easy classes and are getting 3.7s and 3.8s and shit like that. I know I shouldn't be jealous, after all, I am taking way harder classes then they are, but damnit, I can't help it!!! School is supposed to be where I excel, where I shine.  For God sakes, Jake is getting like a 3.7 and he's a fucking alcoholic (no offense, Jake, sweetie, if you read this, but its true). I get depressed when I think of graduation because I thought I'd come out on top, and I didn't.  I feel like a failure.  I know everyone would tell me I'm not, but I feel like it. Ughhhh, why did I have to type all this out, now I'll be thinking about it all day.....Well, over and out, sorry this was such a depressing entry. 

    ~*~L.J.~*~

I love this song sooooo much, its probably my favorite song in the whole world.  Putting a song on the pop radio stations totally RUINS it. Especially if it gets waaaay overplayed, like this song did. Now everyone hates it, and people make fun of me when I tell them its my favorite song. *Sigh* oh well, I don't care, this song is incredible. Its just one of those songs that strikes you the right way, you know? Awesome tune, awesome lyrics. I love it. ANYway, I think the dreaded Physics exam actually went rather well.  There were a couple questions I wasn't sure about, but overall I think I should come out of it with at least a B, and maybe an A. God knows I need it. If I got an A I think I would shit a brick. I won't dare to hope though. Now I just have the MCAT on Saturday to worry about, then I'll be kewl for the week. Next week should be my last week to fuck around before finals, so I'd better make the most of it. I don't think that will be a problem, seeing as how 4:20 is on Wednesday :-D. Hehe!  Yeah, so I have a biochem quiz to study for today, should be easy.  Shudder to think about what I got on the last test, though...Anyway, I can't think of anything else to say, I know this entry is kind of boring.  Oh well, deal with it!  I'll post later if something interesting happens, but don't hold your breath on that.  My life is pretty mundane, as I', sure you've realized by now. 

Cheers!   

        ~*~L.J.~*~

Because my mom would skin me alive and sell my tanned hide to passing Gypsies...ok, NO idea where that came from, and no offense to any Gypsies out there, I am just talking out my ass like I always do.  Ask any of my friends. Chyeah, so, I think the word you're looking for is ANYway. I have a big Physics test tomorrow, as I'm sure you already know if you had spoken to me for more than 2 seconds within the past week.  I pretty much have to get a B or above (LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!) on it, or I'm screwed.  I care not to go into great detail about that part of it, but you get the basic gist.  I am supposed to be GRADUATING for Christ sake!  I studied my ass off all weekend, yesterday, and today.  I am severely stressed out!  Iv'e had a headache all day, and my stomach is in knots.  I'm not trying to get a free pity party or anything (but if you should to decide to give me one, a twelve-pack of Bud Light or Bud Select would be make an excellent sympathy gift ;-) ), I just need to vent.  This is what this horrid excuse for a class does to me. Crandall is the biggest cocksucking asshole on the face of the planet!!!!  GOD I HATE THIS CLASS!!!!  Ok, I'm done talking about this now. I am sure its quite boring to all my faithful readers out there who turn in each day for another one of my exciting adventures (what do you mean, "pathetic?"  I have no idea what you're talking about...), and its depressing for me.  Yeah, so, I'm finally getting the map, and I am sooooooooooooooooooooooo excited about it!!! The dude IMed me the other day and said it would be done on Thurs.  If I am not too busy studying for the MCAT *makes snorting noise* I shall go pick it up.  I want a frame for it, I hope I can find a cheap one at Wal-Mart or something.  What I'd really like to do is go to a hippie shop like the Shed or something and see if I can find a really cool one, a Middle-Earthish looking one. Maybe I could find one on E-bay. Oh well, plenty of time for that, although I would like to hang it on my wall for my remaining month or so here. *sigh* I love LOTR...but I won't go into that, because I know most people who read this aren't as big of Tolkien nerds, or ANY kind of nerds for that matter, as I am.  So yeah, I guess that's it for now, pretty tired, and I have to get up and go to work tomorrow.  They have me working in Steak Escape again...I forgot how much ass it sucked *sigh* Ah well...it'll be a'ight :-D

Farewell!   

~*~L.J.~*~